I'm frustrated with myself because I can't decide / don't know what to write about. Reflecting on my day, I don't recall many instances of emotion or feeling energy, although logically it's probably true that I experienced a great many small instances of this.
Step 2. Identify the first instance where an energetic reaction as emotion or feeling was expressed within the writing:
I'm frustrated that I don't know what to write about.
Step 3. Ask questions to understand, in greater detail, the emotion/feeling as an energetic reaction you wrote about:
Why does not knowing what to write about frustrate me? What have I done to try and solve this problem? What are some things I could have written about?
Step 4. Answer the questions - push yourself to be specific:
My frustration is multi-dimensional:
- I know that I encountered emotions and feelings today. Possibly I am judging these instances as too minor or unimportant, or I am having a hard time identifying and pinpointing specific instances, or I am being impatient with this process and wanting something more obvious to write about.
- I am placing pressure on myself to have something substantial to write about in my blog because I have noticed that some people have been reading it (which is cool!!). I realize that I am responding to the concept of a "first impression" and I want to impress positively upon the individuals and the group with whom I am now participating. This obviously means I have lost touch with writing for myself, already!
- I've been much more tired than usual the last two days and I'm frustrated that it is affecting my (perceived?) ability to accomplish tasks, including writing.
To solve this problem, I have:
- created bullet points in a .txt document about various topics I could try to explore from today.
- begun writing on a few of those points, but then felt stuck and blocked and not continued.
- sighed. I suppose this is different from breathing.
- written anyway, and chosen to write about my resistance to writing, as was suggested at the beginning of this course as a solution for times like these.
Some of the topics I really could have explored today:
- thoughts which create connection to imagined and hopeful un-realities
- tired/lethargic energy
- feeling overwhelmed/anxious about the tasks I have coming up over the next two days
- low-back injury and how I respond to it energetically (frustration, impatience)
- the tv show I've gotten wrapped up in that is usurping some of my thought energy even when I am not watching
- any of the handful of times I disliked what another person in a car on the road did today
- how I felt when my dog snapped at the other dog at the park
- all kinds of things if I directed myself to really consider them!
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